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Ok I've been in a terrible state ever since my rejections from SIA interview. Twice on Round 1.

Ever since then I've developed SOME KIND of phobia for interviews, like I'd feel that its destined to go down the drain...
And my latest rejection proved me right anyway. I applied for and interviewed at a hotel awhile back and they told me they will notify me within 14 days IF I was shortlisted. Yesterday was the 14th day.

Sigh.

I know I've said it before, but I've never felt so lost in my life. No aims, no goals, no nothing.
I know that if I want something, whining and complaining will be the last way to get to it. But the problem is I don't even know what I want, really.
I've been ranting about this to E so many times I think it's time to give him a break (hence this post)? Yep. But it doesn't mean that he didn't offer me any fruitful advices like "Start working for a couple of years and you'll know exactly where to go!" or "Don't worry, B, the opportunity is not here yet."

What will I do without him?

Alright back to serious business. I just sent out 3 more resumes today for concierge/front office positions which I have no prior experience in. See, I've always been working in F&B... I felt it's time for a change.

So, fingers crossed and let the wait begin (again)!

Yesterday

Yesterday, I went to send my favourite Japanese girl off. Ok I only have ONE Japanese friend actually.
Ann, I don't know if you remember but I promised to keep this blog alive so that you can access it and get some updates of my boring life while you're in Japan. I'll make an effort to do so!

Can't wait to grow up, earn some $ and fly to Japan and meet up with her! :D

Wander

It's been more than 4 months since my last update and I'm guilty for not being a frequent blogger.

Life had been mundane for me but what's new?

So I finished Poly and got my Diploma. Finally, after three breathless years. So much has happened in the three long years, things I regretted and things I truly felt happy for. I guess that's life.

I wish I knew what I want in my future because right now I'm a lost sheep with absolutely no directions and no freaking idea what I want to do.

I hope things will work out eventually. Because they always do.. right?

Away

It's been over a month since my last update! Omg.
Sorry for the lack of updates, my remaining readers.
I've been too tired or too busy to blog.

So, it's been close to 3 months since I started my internship.
Along the way I've made plenty of friends.

I wonder if they will be passing clouds in my life like the friends I made in all my previous jobs or really friends that would stay in my life as I grow older.
They are sure fun to hang out with although I've known them for less than 3 months.

It's sad when people leave my life.

It's been awhile and yes! Internship has started for me and everyone else :)
I thought it wasn't as bad as I imagined, really. In the beginning it's a dread to be waking up every morning at 5am. But now, I'm kinda used to it already. :D
My colleagues are nice, the staff canteen's food's not too bad, my job is good.

Well, till then.

Sometimes I wonder if it's my expectations. Am I hard to please? Failed relationships have destroyed close to all the confidence I have to make things work. I am so conscious of everything I feel that I keep questioning myself. And more often than not, I find myself pulling you down with me, into this emotional shithole. I'm not tired of being in a relationship, I'm not tired of you, I'm tired of myself.

Is it too late to change? No it's never too late. I need to be more focused on what I want.

Handburger!

Went to have Handburger for dinner with ze sis on Sunday evening! :D
It wasn't as good as I expected, or maybe I chose the wrong burger? But I have a feeling Fatboy's Burgers and Bar will be so so much better. 

Chunky Mushroom Soup (Awesome! (Y) )

Cajun Chicken Cordon Bleu Burgz

The Handburger Dessert Burger. Now this one is special. It's actually bread with a chocolate 'patty', with cream cheese, some green apples and strawberry jam in between. Yumz but I got sick of it after a few bites.

And here's my sis! :D Thanks for the treat :x

Just came back from a great day out with my girls! Will blog when all the pictures are up on facebook. :>