I've been silly thinking about death when there are so many good things in life.
But at that point of time, I really feel like something inside me is not right, like I'm going...CUCKOO!
It's like one minute I'm calm, the next minute I'm frustrated as whatever's happening again! I don't believe in PMS or what but is it true? I AM having my period now... :-/

Once again, I can't thank those who stood by me and showed their concern for me enough. :x

Anyway, although we're still just friends, I'm just glad that we managed to save the friendship.
I hope my tears won't start falling again when I see you. I will be strong, B, really strong. :D

There's so much death in my mind, the only thing lacking is courage.
Isn't it ironic that you require courage to avoid something that you have no courage to face?

Weak

I feel so weak because when I see you my insides crumble.


Not many people understand how I feel, really. Especially in that place.

That place where I find it hard to belong to now.

I've said enough about how I wish we would be, I know, even I am tired of repeating these words in my head.
I can't stand seeing you happy without me. I'm sorry but that's just how selfish I am.
I can't stand seeing you converse with any girl.
I can't stand seeing you as a friend anymore.

I don't know if I regret getting into this. Sure, we've had some really good memories and great time spent together. But if this was how it was gonna end, if I had known, man, I'll never get into this even if you were to press a knife against my throat.

I feel lame. Like an irritating over possessive ex girlfriend who doesn't know how to let go. What am I talking about? I AM an irritating over possessive ex gf aren't I? Hahahahahahaha.

I wonder what it'll take for you to appreciate my presence.

Studio Ghibli

HELLO THERE!

Yep, so lately I've been taking interest in Studio Ghibli films. You should know My Neighbour, Totoro, right? 

It's a classic Japanese animation film with a cute fantasy creature called Totoro.

Yea so anyway, these are the films I've watched! I loved every single one of them, so you should watch them too! :) 

My Neighbour, Totoro

Kiki's Delivery Service

Caught this on tv haha. It's really nice actually! 

Ponyo on the Cliff by the Sea

This is my least favourite...but it's really cute, nevertheless! 

Spirited Away

MY FAVOURITE ONE OF ALL. It's a must watch.

Howl's Moving Castle

I love all the characters in this film. From the witch of the waste to the little boy, Markl. All of them are so lovable. :)

The Secret World of Arrietty

I just watched this yesterday too. It's the first time I saw it! I love the little details in this film. 

Studio Ghibli films ALWAYS put a smile on my face.
Shall explore all of their movies soon! :D

Let you go

About time I started doing this.






I can almost hear your sigh of relief. Ha.

Heartache

I have never wanted anyone so badly in my life.


What happened to us, really?
Why the sudden change of mind?


I didn't let you into my life just so that you can hurt me so much, bev, I didn't.
I let you in so that you could love me and so that I could love you.

My heart hurts so much, I'm sick of crying but there's nothing else I can do.

So why?
Why did it have to end this way?

If you love me at all, don't. Don't do this to me anymore...

Just a thought

I was looking through my old posts of us, and the dates we went on...
I wonder when you had the intention of ending us.

I can't regret more...for not paying more attention to whatever's going on in you.






I wonder...do we still have a chance?