Smell of Freedom

YES!

Finally freed from Sem 2.2!!!

Except if I have to take sup paper but I don't think I need to, or at least I hope so? Made quite a few careless mistakes today! But I was too busy enjoying the thought of having nothing to do for the holidays to care much about the paper.

Pastamania for lunch with Rachel, Yanpoop, Yp, Kel, and of course, my favourite boy, B.
Then we played L4D for an insane 5 hours straight. Fully satisfied my "craving" to play some lan games.

Tomorrow will be yet another great day (Y).

 My pimple looks like a mole. Haha. 

Omg so tired!!! Will sleep early tonight!

Anyway, hater's gonna hate but I wouldn't hate/dislike you at all if you haven't been like that first. It's tiring to hate/dislike someone.

Mad World

Trying out the new blogger app nowww. Very fast, I like.

Feeling so troubled once again. Feeling like I'm not being accepted socially. It's depressing, really...I mean I'm kot being whiny or what and I definitely don't feel like telling anyone (even b, lest he worries again) because it's a repetitive issue but I really needed to rant so here I am.

19 years of my life, I've met many friends and had many good friends. But I never really have one that I can proudly call my bestfriend. Really envy people who have someone there for them 24/7 because that's what bestfriends do. I keep deceiving myself, saying my soulmate should be my bestfriend and stuff but let's face it, every girl needs a girl bestfriend sometimes...
And now I just feel really empty inside Sure, I've met people who treat me like I'm precious to them, but I just can't be comfortable to call them my bestfriend because deep inside I know they're not. Not someone who knows me best, not someone who'll always be there for me..just not.
I'm not being picky here, or at least trying not to (I tend to notice people's flaws...)... Well maybe I, myself, is not a bestfriend material as well.

Sigh, I'm stuck in this cycle. One moment I'll feel blessed and loved, the next moment the depression phase will set in again.
Do you get this feeling that everyone secretly hates/dislikes you?

I really do sometimes. :(

OK ON A SIDE NOTE,
Here are the stickers I couldn't not buy.

Appreciate

Today was great! I've never felt so relaxed since the submission week started and I'm glad today was spent with my fave boy.

Anyway, yep, ended school at around 1, had lunch at Mensa and headed to Bugis with B! Impromptu shopping and he came along although he was tired (I KNOW YOU ARE, STOP LYING!).
Totally appreciate his existence, totally appreciate how he'll go the extra mile to make me happy. I'm so glad I found you, never thought I would find another one who'll treat me so well.

My blog is filled with you, be honoured!
I'm kidding. YDI! :D

So excited! Submission for the last report of the semester due tomorrow and we can finally catch a breath before preparing for the main exams and a tiny test that comes before it. I can't wait for the holidays!
On a side note, we got a C for our FEM report which is so depressing because most of the mistakes made are in the parts I did. Although I know that it's a group thing, I still can't help feeling that I pulled the team down. :(


Alright that's all for today!

Shall we?

I'm still waiting for the day when we can see each other everyday, go to each other's house freely...
I'm waiting, very patiently waiting.
I hope I don't sound naive to always think about marriage for my relationships. No, I don't think I'm naive. I really believe and want to last long.

Besides, there's nothing wrong with hoping, is there? :)

(U)

On Monday, someone came to fetch Tyki and send her for sterilization. She's back later in the day looking and feeling weak.
Feeling so bad that Tyki's going through this hardship.
I don't know if it's supposed to be like this or what. But Tyki came back with scratches from where they shaved off her fur for the operation, a cut on one of her nipples (OUCH), ulcers and blue blacks on her tummy. I think she's hungry but she can't eat because her mouth hurts. We checked her gums and they were rather...red and seemingly wounded? :(

I don't know if sending her for sterilization was a right choice but I do know that in the long run it sort of lessens the chance of her getting breast cancer, etc... And it definitely reduces the yowling when she's in heat.

Sigh, well I guess it's too late already! For now let's see her recover and gain some weight, that's all I want!

19th

So my 19th was spent amidst submissions and presentations. But it didn't matter because I have this bunch and a handful of friends whom I'm grateful to for remembering my birthday.
This year's birthday was different too, because I have B around. He gave me the sweetest present I could ever receive and don't worry B, I won't make this year's birthday a benchmark. :P
Such a nice present, must hao lian abit!

That's right! My fav boy made me a dreamcatcher! MADE! MADEEEE!!! WITH HIS BARE HANDS! And he even made me a small one to use as a keychain!
And he surprised me at midnight on 2nd Feb. Hehe. I'm so touched. ♥

Rachy and Lily too, haha, they fooled me into thinking that they were meeting friends and stuff and got me my present! Haha, I didn't take any pictures but I love them all the same. :>

There are many things I don't deserve and these friends are one of them. Will do my best to cherish them. I have finally known which are the friends to hold close to my heart and which friends don't really care about me as much. I know now.

Anyway! Went to Chinatown with B today! Oakham Market was a  disappointment once again! :(

Always can't find stuff to buy + there are so many people today. So yea... But we did have a fun time chilling at Ann Siang Hill and squeezing blackheads! :)

Headed to Town for Wild Honey for dinner! It's an all day breakfast restaurant selling all types of breakfast. The food wasn't as good as I remembered though. But I'll definitely go back again to try the different breakfasts!

Top: Scandinavian - Grilled Salmon with Rosti, tomatoes and asparagus
The salmon was dope. But the sauce tasted weird and plasticky.
Bottom: Aussie - Rib-eye with fried egg, potatoes, tomatoes, home made baked beans with sauteed mushrooms.
B had this one. Didn't try the steak (cutting down on beef). He said it was a bit tough for medium rare.

Project meeting tomorrow so I need to catch some sleep!
Abrupt end to the post but I'll be back soon. ♥